Thats why i gave up on music lyrics

I’ve thought but without understanding
Under the blue sky, I stood there waiting
The wind blowing at noon that day
My imagination drifts away
Hey, I sometimes wonder where am I supposed to go?
I still haven’t learned how to take a step forward
Looking straight into your gaze,
Without saying a word, I simply turned away

I’ve thought but without understanding
Living through youth is a boring thing
I want to give up the piano
But I keep tapping my desk on though
Hey, I sometimes think what will I do in the future?
Surely, music is just a foolish answer
But please don’t worry, okay?

I know even if I chose just one heartstring to pluck and prose
It would never disappear from me
You see, because it’s a part of me
Oh, I remember

I know that I can’t be wrong
Although I don’t care
I don’t understand it
Whether this is love, or the world, or bitterness, or just life: but does it matter?
And wanting to know right from wrong is just a self-defense technique
It must be your fault that I had thought that

I’ve thought but without understanding
Why I don’t want to grow up, really, truly
I know that I will die one day, and I can feel my heart empty out from thinking that way
“What are you going to do in the future?”
As for me, I know that when I’m an adult
That I won’t have done a thing

How can I say that I hate people that put on a happy face?
When I know they won’t understand
This inferiority complex in me
In my mind, it’s a ghost that’s haunting me

I know that I can’t be wrong
You’re different from me and yet you’re human
Not having that love, or kindness, salvation or foundation: don’t you think that it hurts?
Love songs like this one just hurt me, but that’s a self-defense technique
But do I not care? Although it’s your fault

I’ve thought but without understanding
Why is it so painful to keep living?
Why can’t I make a living writing music?
Who really cares if they’re all lazy lyrics?
I really don’t care

I know that this isn’t wrong
There’s just no way I’m wrong
Yes, surely, I’m not wrong…

And yet I know that I’m wrong, known it all along
But I don’t care at all
Whether this is love, or the world, or bitterness, or just life: but does it matter?
Unable to say the right answer is a self-defense technique
I really don’t care, since it’s all your fault

Ah~

Even I once had faith in something
That feeling was reduced to nothing
I wrote to you so many times
And I didn’t care if I’d have wealth or fame in life
It’s all true, really it’s true
That’s how it was for me then

And that’s why I chose

And that’s why I chose to give up on the music

ヨルシカ (Yorushika)

That’s Why I Gave Up On Music (English Cover)

Thought out but logic isn’t clicking
That sky when I longed to have you with me
Tired breezes singing sweetly, as my mind it comes alive and flies freely
Hey, going forward oh, where will it take me?
Everything it just leaves me helplessly
Looking at me, smiling
As I turned away and didn’t say a thing

Thought out but logic isn’t clicking
Our youth is dull amount to nothing
Giving up on the piano, but the sickening beat, had taken over me
Hey, and on oh where oh will it take me?
Far from all of the music you’re making?
Go on living happily

Pizzicato strings that sing I pluck a heart-made melody
Long without me they never lose beat, when they’re out of reach ever fondly
Oh I, carry their light

And I’ll never know, I don’t care to know
Just go on and let go
All of this “love” for your life, for the world and the sky, they cry, while never knowing why
They want to know, be told down where to go
But that’s just how life flows
It’s your fault that, I couldn’t say so

Thought out but logic isn’t clicking
Forced now to face the future I’m resisting
“I’ll fade on to nothing,” and the stinging in my chest it burns right on to the ending
“Where am I headed in the future?”
Growing up I can’t speak up a single word
Stuck in frozen terms

How do I explain the hate I feel watching that happy face?
What do they have that’s missing?
Stuck there on the side I’m watching--a ghost
I follow every step but still don’t know

I’m not wrong to live! And in spite of this
We still all are human
Lacking “love” for your life, for the world and the sky, you cry, while never knowing why
That painful sting when you’re listening
Is just proof you’re living
Not that I care though, all just your whim
Thought out but logic isn’t clicking
Why does it hurt to keep on breathing on and living?
Why can’t you make a living writing music?
It’s fine if all the words I write are useless

Not like I care though
Yeah I’m sure I wasn’t wrong
Yeah I’m sure I wasn’t wrong...
And I swear I wasn’t wrong…

Yeah the fault was mine, all through my life
I couldn’t read the signs
All of this “love” for your life, for the world and the sky, they cry, I couldn’t tell you why
They want to know, be told down where to go
But that’s just how life flows
It’s all your fault that, I couldn’t say so

There was once a time I dreamed too
Now the feelings have all broke through misuse
So long that I had written for you
I don’t really care about the fame, you know my love was true
I felt it, more than I knew
That’s how I had felt then too
That’s why I’m done with it
That’s why I’m done with it
All my notes
Died with you